I have been searching
for a common unifying theme in my life right now and was having an impossible
time…until my friend who has been like a sister to me since elementary school
and who is always my go-to wordsmith unintentionally handed me the perfect
phrase in a Facebook chat:
“Life is a joyous
hurricane of nonsense.”
Thanks Em, that´s it
exactly.
So I will do my best
to describe this joyous nonsensical hurricane that I am living right now, but
if these snapshots don´t do it justice, then at least you already have the
perfect sentence to summarize my life right now.
Guadalajara
Leaving Mexico City
was something I was looking forward to for a while, but I didn´t quite realize just
how necessary it was until I was on the bus. My bus left at 5am on Saturday so
naturally I slept for the first few hours of the bus ride. Suddenly I was
awaked by the glow of the sun on my face, the gentle rocking of the bus, and a
view of endless forested hills all around me. I cannot properly describe how
rejuvenating and perfect that moment felt. Without realizing it, I had been
slowly suffocating, surrounded by concrete and other man-made structures for so
long. I felt like I could breathe deeply for the first time in months. I must
have looked like a child: my nose pressed again the window, smiling like a
maniac. This was probably the only time in my life where I felt the urge to
jump out of a moving vehicle and just frolic in the tall grass or sit under a
tree on a hill. But what was more amazing to me was not how profoundly I had
missed natural habitats, but how just a glimpse of them through a bus window
was enough to leave me feeling refreshed and inspired. That´s just the power of
nature.
Tlaquepaque
Pronounced “tlack-eh-pack-ay”
Don´t worry, I had to take a picture of a sign with the name on it and memorize
the spelling in order to pronounce it correctly. This neighborhood of
Guadalajara is known for its unique art, delicious restaurants, and one-of-a-kind
artisanal products. My aunt, uncle and cousins took me there on Saturday
afternoon and it was incredible. The glassware and hand-painted crafts were so
unique and beautiful it was all I could do to not spend all of the money I had
brought with me. We also got to see the Danza de los Voladores (Dance of the
Flyers) performed in the town center by a group of indigenous performers that
was quite the spectacle. It was wonderful to be welcomed into the home of my
aunt and uncle in Guadalajara and I had a blast spending time with my younger cousins,
playing card games and sharing delicious food. That night when I went to bed, I
cherished the complete and peaceful silence that embraced me as I closed my
eyes. No car horns. No tamale vendor or “used mattress-buying” cart
announcements. No neighbors´ television programs or opera singing drifting
through my window (yes, my neighbor is a legitimate opera singer, or at least
thinks he is and practices every other afternoon, even giving concerts in the
middle of the night to a round a soft applause on some nights). No stray cat
mewing from the staircase. Just silence. Blissful, beautiful silence.
Endeavor National
Selection Panel
While visiting family
and taking a break from big city life were amazing, the main reason I was in
Guadalajara was for work. In a whirlwind of preparation and hours of interviews
and deliberations, the national selection panel came and went. While neither of
the entrepreneurs with whom I had worked were selected in the end, it was still
an inspiring and eye-opening experience. The three other companies that did
pass the panel truly showcased their innovation and preparedness to move onto
the international panel and we are all routing for them. After the national
panel came to an end, the Endeavor staff and panelists shared a casual lunch at
a local burger joint. Friendly conversation flowed between business people and
entrepreneurs from all walks of life. These panelists voluntarily gave up their
weekend to travel to Guadalajara and evaluate the newest Endeavor candidates,
and it is their commitment and dedication that truly makes the Endeavor network
unique and valuable.
The Hurricane
Well, it wasn´t a
hurricane exactly, but it was certainly one hell of a thunderstorm. The return
trip from Guadalajara was spent with my co-workers in a small van that was not
designed to carry passengers based on its poor suspension and lack of
functional seatbelts. But once again I felt completely relaxed and at home for
two reasons: 1. I was once again surrounded by beautiful natural scenery and 2.
I have traveled in a cramped sketchy van many, many times on various Villanova events
and service break trips that being sandwiched between people and bounced up and
down in a van for 7 hours was perhaps the most familiar thing I have done since
arriving in Mexico. As we approached Mexico City, we could see the storm ahead.
Just before the pounding rain hit the windshield and the van started
hydroplaning on turns, we got a glimpse of this beautiful rainbow. A fragment
of beauty before the chaos.
Social life
So guess what? After
three months of living in Mexico – I have friends! Finally, I have broken my
curse of only meeting guys older than me who are about to leave the city! It
started very subtly and slowly, like all friendships do. A common interest. Seeing
them a few times in a row at different meetup.com group events. And then… it´s
been two hours already and we´re still laughing and sharing life stories over
dinner or coffee. I´ve finally had those moments where I just clicked with
another person and shared my real self. Not the international traveler who has
a prestigious fellowship and speaks Spanish and is doing just fine living on
her own, thanks. But the idealistic, endlessly curious, nerdy, honest, self-critical,
elaborate story-telling, loud-laughing, sometimes awkward, recent college
graduate who is still just trying to figure it all out. When you know that the
other person is willing to listen to that side of you and share their real
selves with you as well, you know that this is someone worth getting to know
more. So even though my co-workers still joke around affectionately calling me
“abuela” because I don´t like partying much, I enjoy baking, I get excited
about doing laundry, and I am a member of a monthly book club, I am finally
finding my own group of friends from all different backgrounds and countries to
share this amazing city with.
Rain
While the rainy season
should be ending soon, it is not (insert angry climate change comment here).
But while the rain is unyielding, at least it is predictable. It comes nearly
every night around 6pm or 7pm. And this is great if you are prepared. Which I
thought I was. I had gone to yoga all decked out in my raincoat. No purse, just
waterproof pockets and workout clothes that would dry easily. So I went to yoga
and had an incredible class (as always). I left feeling refreshed and alive and
strong. And then I stepped out onto the street and, as if on cue, lightning
cracked and thunder shook the sidewalk. Then the raindrops started careening
earthward, falling as if meeting the ground was of the utmost necessity. I still
had a 20 minute walk ahead of me. No big deal, I thought. I have a raincoat, I
thought. Hah. The raindrops also had an insatiable desire to find every single
opening in my raincoat. Before I had walked two blocks I was soaked from head
to toe. And then, I just stopped caring. I was completely alone on a wide
pedestrian sidewalk in the island of the street (common walkways in La Roma and
La Condesa neighborhoods) and the rain was so thick I could barely see in front
of me. So I jumped in puddles. I skipped. I sang. I spun. And as the storm grew
in strength, so did I, careening from puddle to puddle, foot to foot, note to
note. By the time I reached my apartment I had a river of water running down my
forehead and pouring off my nose like a faucet into my smiling mouth. The
puddles in my shoes alone could have quenched my thirst for a week. But as I
opened my door, giggling like a child, debating whether it was worthwhile to
take another shower, I noticed that the inside of what was supposed to be a
waterproof pocket was soaked. And, smile fading, I took out my phone (the
inanimate object in my life that I depend on for a scary amount of things that
I don´t like to think about often) to find that it too had taken a nice long
bath. In a panic, I turned it off, disassembled all of the parts that I could,
and rushed to find some dry rice to put them in. (Readers note: when people say
to put your phone in rice if it gets wet to absorb the moisture, they mean
normal white rice, not organic brown rice. Organic brown rice breaks apart and
sticks to all of the little important delicate electronic inner parts of your
phone and gives you a heart attack.) But my phone is a champ and despite all
sorts of rice and rain related mistreatment, somehow it still works.
Gathering Round the
Table
One of my aunts called
me a few weekends ago inviting me to celebrate another aunt´s birthday. She had
prepared a meal so that the birthday girl (who has always done so much to take
care of other family members) wouldn´t have to lift a finger, and had invited a
few family members to share it with. We all met at Tía Charín´s house, since it
is difficult to leave home when you are 101 years old. Tía Charín welcomed us,
birthday girl and all, into her small home, and was very accepting of various
furniture re-arranging to accommodate everyone at one table. Sharing this meal
with relatives from four different generations, everyone crowded around that
one table, I realized that I was a part of something incredibly special. I
treasured every last note of conversation and laughter. I cannot even begin to
express in words how lucky I am to be able to call all of these incredible
people family.
My cousin Lau and I at Corona Capital
Belle and Sebastian playing in a field of mud
Mud and Music
Last Sunday my cousin
and I went to the Corona Capital music festival, or as some call it the
“hipster capital.” The lineup was a dream come true: all of my favorite
alternative electronic/rock bands in one day. And then before the first band I
knew even came on, the sky opened up. And it poured. It poured that kind of
rain that leaves you feeling soaked to the bone. The kind that pelts you
sideways, mocking ponchos and raincoats. But then as quickly as it came, it
stopped. It was one of those events that could have been a disaster in the
perspective of some, but when shared with such an easy-going and upbeat person
like Lau, it ended up being an incredible concert with some high-quality
mud-dancing and cousin-bonding. Everyone I have told about the concert so far
has asked me incredulously, “You stayed til the end?” Of course we did. We were
young and mud-soaked and carefree. There is nothing more simultaneously invigorating
and exhausting as spending all day on your feet at a concert, soaking in the
music of your generation. And just so you don´t worry, our shoes did survive in
the end (after a thorough washing).
Sunlight
So in this joyous,
nonsensical, tempestuous new life of mine it is easy to miss the little things.
Which I am trying hard not to do. And this Monday one of those things found me.
I was walking to buy my weekly unavoidably necessary gigantic jug of bottled
water (which always makes me cringe because plastic and the environment and
ugh), which meant that needless to say I wasn’t in the greatest mood. And then
suddenly I turn around and just look at my building and stop. The late
afternoon light cast a warm glow on the whole building, and I felt a rush of
affection. This was home. This crazy, bustling, welcoming, stressful,
eye-opening, heartwarming, beautiful place.
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